One of the life coach gurus that I follow, Brooke Castillo, says that we are meant to feel negative emotion 50% of the time. The problem with that only arises when we fight with reality and try and avoid feeling those uncomfortable emotions like loss, disappointment, or anger even. Byron Katie, another wise woman, says that when you argue with reality, you lose only 100% of the time. So today my plan is to let it in. I have definitely been putting the Bijou thoughts on hold, not because I am in denial but because I just don't want to miss her. Every time the memory reel starts, I hit pause. But today I am going to let it play and once all the negative emotion has it's turn I am going to focus on gratitude. Because I am grateful. I am grateful for the painful lessons that I have learned, rather, that I am still learning, and for the beautiful memories that I have of her. But mostly I am grateful for the joy and love that I still get to feel for her.